Feeling so frustrated! This is the only position I can have my arm to feel comfortable.

I feel useless, dependable on others, can't paint, draw or sculpture anything due the pain. I feel my life is on hold... Never spent so much time doing nothing, always been so independent but now I feel so sad that I just wanna cry. Plus in 2 weeks I was supposed to travel and I hate the idea of not controlling my life and I feel all my insecurities coming up...